I'm halfway through the second week of the new job. It's turning out to be a pretty good team & contract so far. Of course MS just announced MASSIVE LAYOFFS last week... so I have that to look forward to. We're at least one tester short of what we actually need but our manager doesn't want to interview or hire anyone until he knows what’s happening headcount wise.
So... is my job secure? Will I get to work here for a full year or even six months? Who the heck knows? I'm going to go forward with the idea - suspicion - premonition - whatchamawannacallit... that I'll only be here for six months. That seems to be the minimum that they hire for now. I'd really like to be here for a full year because my future plans rather depend on my being able to earn enough cash to manage my escape. I've estimated that I'll "need" close to $10k to do so.
Realistically, I need $5,270 for a course I wish to take in Orlando... & another $599 for airfare. I also want some additi0nal cash on top of that. This thing is an once-in-a-lifetime shot & I'm intentionally not advertising what I want to do. I've already had enough "friends" try to talk me out of it. What I find interesting is the way some people put up the appearance of being supportive & interested. Yet all the while they display all the signs of utter disinterest as they attempt to convince you not to take such risks. They wouldn't do it. They hope that you won't either. If one succeeds in such a life change, does it cause those close to you to feel diminished? It seems like this is an issue.
The worst part of this is that you can too often tell that these people are not even listening as you answer the questions that they've asked. The same questions come up time & again. You answer them yet again. Weeks later, rinse & repeat. When you provide documentation, they give it the briefest perusal, then put it down & never pick it up again. Yet they're "encouraging & supporting you". Mierda de toro.
Ahhh... I digress. It's not like I actually expect anyone to read let alone comment on this mental detritus. It just feels refreshing to vent & I notice that people tend to stare at me when I talk to myself.
So... is my job secure? Will I get to work here for a full year or even six months? Who the heck knows? I'm going to go forward with the idea - suspicion - premonition - whatchamawannacallit... that I'll only be here for six months. That seems to be the minimum that they hire for now. I'd really like to be here for a full year because my future plans rather depend on my being able to earn enough cash to manage my escape. I've estimated that I'll "need" close to $10k to do so.
Realistically, I need $5,270 for a course I wish to take in Orlando... & another $599 for airfare. I also want some additi0nal cash on top of that. This thing is an once-in-a-lifetime shot & I'm intentionally not advertising what I want to do. I've already had enough "friends" try to talk me out of it. What I find interesting is the way some people put up the appearance of being supportive & interested. Yet all the while they display all the signs of utter disinterest as they attempt to convince you not to take such risks. They wouldn't do it. They hope that you won't either. If one succeeds in such a life change, does it cause those close to you to feel diminished? It seems like this is an issue.
The worst part of this is that you can too often tell that these people are not even listening as you answer the questions that they've asked. The same questions come up time & again. You answer them yet again. Weeks later, rinse & repeat. When you provide documentation, they give it the briefest perusal, then put it down & never pick it up again. Yet they're "encouraging & supporting you". Mierda de toro.
Ahhh... I digress. It's not like I actually expect anyone to read let alone comment on this mental detritus. It just feels refreshing to vent & I notice that people tend to stare at me when I talk to myself.
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